Status: Alright.
Music: I'm Gonna Be Alright - Jennifer Lopez


More than a year ago, Icang asked me if I would ever be capable of loving another man. I was straight then. I answered Icang with this: I was never attracted to another man, I am not, but I am not saying I will never be. A few months after saying that I found myself falling for another guy. But it was only very recently that I came out. To be honest, no one in my family or in my hometown has a clue. And whenever I meet new friends, I don't usually tell them about my sexuality until they ask me (which only happened once).

I am bisexual. And as Ma'am Almond Aguila, our Ethics professor back in college, said: it is difficult enough to understand "gay" people, and it's even harder to understand "bisexuals." I am aware of that little difficulty because before becoming like this, I also had the same sentiments. But if you are thinking that it is difficult to understand bisexuals, mind you, it's even more difficult being one.

For example, from the very moment I admitted to my friends that I'm bisexual, they never ever considered me as a species capable of loving a woman again. They were blinded by the fact that now, I like guys, too. Although that is very true, that's all they see now. They forgot that I also find Nicole of Pussycat Dolls sexy, or that I am obsessed with Nicole Kidman, and that I once said that I wanted to fuck Keira Knightley. Hell, they even forgot that I had girlfriends. All they know now is that I like Steven Gerrard and Andriy Shevchenko. And never did they ask why I like them. It's not because they look good (but hell, they do), but because they're great football players. Although I admit that CNN's Don Riddell's lips really take my breath away.

Another thing. And this time, I'm not only speaking for the bisexual guys but for the gay guys as well. We may (also) like men but it doesn't mean we want to become women! I mean, come on, you know me. I'm the most chauvinistic, anti-feministic friend you (will ever) have! I love men AND I love being one. I love being a man. Never had the thought of wearing skirts or panties entered my mind. It's like the eeeewiest thing to occur to me.

All gay and bisexual guys are not capable of having serious romantic relationships because all they want and need is sex, sex, sex. THIS IS SOOO NOT TRUE. And this is, in most cases, the reason gay guys are very afraid to come out. They don't want to be seen as pervs. I'm not saying that no one in our group is like that. What I'm trying to point out is that NOT EVERY GAY GUY in this happy, gay world is.

Maybe what I'm really trying to say here is this: I love regardless of sex or gender. Man or woman, I don't care. Love knows no gender (or age or race).

Whatever. Basta. I'm happy.

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Anyway, I was able to catch the Queer Eye for the Straight Guy hosts at Glorietta weeks ago. But I wasn't able to take pics. Si Lei kasi, nagmamadali.

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Football update: Crespo left Chelsea for Inter Milan! Waaah! OK lang. Shevchenko, prove to me that you're a better striker. Hmf! Go Chelsea!!!